I just want more, is that a crime?

These photographs were taken a few weeks ago when it was glorious sunshine here in the UK. I had returned from the BB UK Tour and was just settling back into my routine. I have a weird stress disorder that plays havoc with my body; When I’m apprehensive or away from my regular routine (And I HATE routine in general. Go figure.) my stomach gets crazy and swollen and this was the first day I began to feel like I looked OK again, despite still opting for the baggy top and tights.

My body hates being away from home and home cooked food and to be perfectly honest with myself I never feel as right as when I’m on my own sofa or snuggled in my own bed. Even when I’ve been in New York I’ve been insanely ill and my body is desperate to be home, even though my heart is screaming out to stay. I don’t think I’ll ever find that inner peace in my own body… I think it says a lot about who I am in general. Never happy, never satisfied. I just want more, is that a crime?

Speaking of wanting more, this is the street near my house that I’m in love with. It’s right off the park where we walk the Frank!Dog and despite being surrounded by the student area in which I live and it being right off the main road opposite a school.. somehow it’s completely peaceful and still.
I adore the cobbled streets, I adore where the moss grows in the gaps. I love the overhang of the trees and that every house is different. I love that the houses are huuuge with beautiful gardens and yards for your (imaginary)car. I can see myself living here, with a music studio in the basement that fills the whole house with a hum of beautiful sounds and a craft room on the second floor with huge windows letting in the natural light. A gorgeous bedroom in the attic without any clutter of day to day life where you can relax and watch the rain drumming on the neighboring rooftops, and a cute farmhouse kitchen with herbs lining the windowsills sitting in vintage tea canisters.

I’m desperate to live in a world where I can have more, where I can make anything happen. I want to see the world. I’m a big advocate for charities, though I want to work with them rather than just hand them money. I want to build businesses and create jobs. I want to provide a platform for struggling artists to put out and promote their music… and that’s just off the top of my head.

But I’m not selfish enough to just have it handed to me, I’m more than willing to work for it. You just get to a stage where you wonder if all that work is doing any good at all, y’know? But I guess… if all your dreams came true, what would there be to dream about?

Shorts | Miss Selfridge | Similar
Retro Print Top | Matalan
Cardigan | Forever Unique | Similar
Shoes | Dorothy Perkins | Similar

Photos by Boyfriend

Loves x xx

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  • Jo

    Ahh Sophie, sorry to hear your stomach’s been misbehaving. If it’s any consolation, I get exactly the same, either as a reaction to food, illness or stress. Last night I looked about 4 months pregnant. Think it was a combination of a food choice and the fact I’ve just returned from my honeymoon with a throat infection and sinus problems, bleurgh :-( Glad to hear yours has settled down. You’re looking super lovely in those pictures. I love black tights and shorts as a combo. Oooh and that street looks so characterful. Btw, have you re-designed your blog? I’m absolutely loving it, especially the menu bar. Nice work! :-) x
    Jo (